【羅湖遊記Vol. 66 (節錄) 】2021-10-6

//呢幾日不停有唔同嘅工程人員出出入入👷🏻‍♂️,拆走舊嘅、唔啱用嘅,換上新設備,連姑娘居高臨下嘅救生員枱都換咗做寬闊嘅寫字樓枱 (頓時霸氣盡失😆),由木板高凳變成有坐墊嘅社區會堂凳。雖然我哋唔想轉變,但轉變亦總會引起我哋嘅好奇同注意,因為喺千篇一律入面有啲新意,例如喺後面走廊拉咗布幕嘅工程,總係令人想睇下有咩好整;又例如轉咗姑娘枱凳,不下十個人問過姑娘張新凳好唔好坐💺

小改變令人好奇,大改變令人懊惱。踏出comfort zone從來都係一件好難嘅事,但喺監房就係咁不由自主,都冇乜選擇嘅餘地,只能夠話畀自己聽OK,我做得到,做返自己應做嘅事,繼續努力掙扎中生存。

講到好誇張,明明一個月前仲喺嗰邊好開心,懊惱緊轉過嚟要適應好煩。諗起有人同我分享過哈維爾獄中書簡: ”Here you enter a state somewhat akin to hibernation, allow yourself to be swept along by the stereotypical rountine of prison life, sink into a kind of sweet mental lethargy, and the prospect of going back to the ent world becomes somewhat terrifying.”//

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